BLUE WHITE GREEN
[I am a very good swimmer]
January 2022 - ongoing
GRIEF RETRIEVAL SCORE
1. Dream BLUE WHITE GREEN
2. CUT HAIR
3. WALK THROUGH FOREST PORTAL into Lake Washington
4. Set intentions
5. WALK / TUNE
6. Work on S
7. WALK / TUNE
8. SEE THE WORK
9. SET SPACE
10. Drive across bridge
11. Pull 22-year-old self back from No. 8 bus
12. Pull 23-year-old self back from strawberry porch
13. WALK / SET SPACE
14. Pull 29-year-old self back from edge of hill
15. WALK / SET SPACE
16. Pull 26-year-old self from bedrooms of purple houses
17. WALK / TUNE / SET SPACE
18. Pull all of them back from bars, from old apartment buildings, from the soaking water
19. WALK with R, renounce suicide
20. WALK / SET SPACE / TUNE
21. Be driven to ferry, secrets in the car
22. Seattle to Bainbridge, driven to Port Townsend
23. Go to lighthouse: Deer, Bald Eagle, Heron
24. Pull her back from his sadness & his & his
25. Bring her in, feed her, see her & all of you together
26. Walk into green portal, align with dreams new & old, release all else
27. Remember love / SET SPACE
28. Dip body in Pacific Ocean three times: Sun
29. Port Townsend to Bainbridge, ferry to Seattle
30. Walk up hill / TUNE
31. Dive into Lake Washington
32. WALK / TUNE / SET SPACE
33. Work on A
34. PULL SUN INTO BODY
35. Dream a system of shapes beneath
36. Cut finger open
37. The whole day a dance
38. Tend wound
39. SET SPACE
40. PUNCH THROUGH DREAM HOLE
41. WALK
42. Eat with M & C
43. Walk alone at night
44. Be alone in the house at night
45. Bandage wound
46. Apologize through air
47. Round them up—pull her back from the wooing spot, from the darkest bar, the long walk between
48. Move all together, whole for the first time
49. Look into shard of mirror on ground
50. SET SPACE / TUNE / WALK
51. Buy them an ice cream cone
52. Dream a system of healing
53. SET SPACE / WALK / TUNE
54. Talk about love, write it down, kiss a woman
55. Dive into lake, whole
56. SUN IN CHEST
57. Drive South, don’t turn
58. Let them settle, back on ground
59. Rest inside green pearl
60. See the future as a shape
61. To dream new
62. Take them home, be in flowers
63. SET SPACE / WALK / TUNE / SLEEP
64. At the party with friends
65. EAT / SLEEP / TUNE with rain & river / WALK
66. DROP THE STICK
67. Burn old ways
68. Face West, wash, send flowers downriver
69. WISH: THIS
70. Shave remaining hair onto ground, born
71. Continue / Repeat
1. Dream BLUE WHITE GREEN
2. CUT HAIR
3. WALK THROUGH FOREST PORTAL into Lake Washington
4. Set intentions
5. WALK / TUNE
6. Work on S
7. WALK / TUNE
8. SEE THE WORK
9. SET SPACE
10. Drive across bridge
11. Pull 22-year-old self back from No. 8 bus
12. Pull 23-year-old self back from strawberry porch
13. WALK / SET SPACE
14. Pull 29-year-old self back from edge of hill
15. WALK / SET SPACE
16. Pull 26-year-old self from bedrooms of purple houses
17. WALK / TUNE / SET SPACE
18. Pull all of them back from bars, from old apartment buildings, from the soaking water
19. WALK with R, renounce suicide
20. WALK / SET SPACE / TUNE
21. Be driven to ferry, secrets in the car
22. Seattle to Bainbridge, driven to Port Townsend
23. Go to lighthouse: Deer, Bald Eagle, Heron
24. Pull her back from his sadness & his & his
25. Bring her in, feed her, see her & all of you together
26. Walk into green portal, align with dreams new & old, release all else
27. Remember love / SET SPACE
28. Dip body in Pacific Ocean three times: Sun
29. Port Townsend to Bainbridge, ferry to Seattle
30. Walk up hill / TUNE
31. Dive into Lake Washington
32. WALK / TUNE / SET SPACE
33. Work on A
34. PULL SUN INTO BODY
35. Dream a system of shapes beneath
36. Cut finger open
37. The whole day a dance
38. Tend wound
39. SET SPACE
40. PUNCH THROUGH DREAM HOLE
41. WALK
42. Eat with M & C
43. Walk alone at night
44. Be alone in the house at night
45. Bandage wound
46. Apologize through air
47. Round them up—pull her back from the wooing spot, from the darkest bar, the long walk between
48. Move all together, whole for the first time
49. Look into shard of mirror on ground
50. SET SPACE / TUNE / WALK
51. Buy them an ice cream cone
52. Dream a system of healing
53. SET SPACE / WALK / TUNE
54. Talk about love, write it down, kiss a woman
55. Dive into lake, whole
56. SUN IN CHEST
57. Drive South, don’t turn
58. Let them settle, back on ground
59. Rest inside green pearl
60. See the future as a shape
61. To dream new
62. Take them home, be in flowers
63. SET SPACE / WALK / TUNE / SLEEP
64. At the party with friends
65. EAT / SLEEP / TUNE with rain & river / WALK
66. DROP THE STICK
67. Burn old ways
68. Face West, wash, send flowers downriver
69. WISH: THIS
70. Shave remaining hair onto ground, born
71. Continue / Repeat
