BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY 
or  BLUE   WHITE   GREEN
 or  (I am a very good swimmer)




January 2022 - ongoing





TRANSFORMATION SCORE

1.    Dream BLUE WHITE GREEN

2.   CUT HAIR

3.    WALK THROUGH FOREST PORTAL into Lake Washington

4.    Set intentions

5.    WALK / TUNE

6.    Work on S

7.    WALK / TUNE

8.    SEE THE WORK

9.    SET SPACE

10.   Drive across bridge

11.   Pull 22-year-old self back from No. 8 bus

12.   Pull 23-year-old self back from strawberry porch

13.   WALK / SET SPACE

14.   Pull 29-year-old self back from edge of hill  

15.   WALK / SET SPACE

16.   Pull 26-year-old self from bedrooms of purple houses

17.   WALK / TUNE / SET SPACE

18.   Pull all of them back from bars, from old apartment buildings, from the soaking water

19.   WALK with R, renounce suicide

20.   WALK / SET SPACE / TUNE

21.   Be driven to ferry, secrets in the car

22.   Seattle to Bainbridge, driven to Port Townsend

23.   Go to lighthouse: Deer, Bald Eagle, Heron

24.   Pull her back from his sadness & his & his

25.   Bring her in, feed her, see her & all of you together

26.   Walk into green portal, align with dreams new & old, release all else

27.   Remember love / SET SPACE

28.   Dip body in Pacific Ocean three times: Sun

29.   Port Townsend to Bainbridge, ferry to Seattle

30.   Walk up hill / TUNE

31.   Dive into Lake Washington

32.   WALK / TUNE / SET SPACE

33.   Work on A

34.   PULL SUN INTO BODY

35.   Dream a system of shapes beneath

36.   Cut finger open

37.   The whole day a dance

38.  Tend wound

39.   SET SPACE

40.   PUNCH THROUGH DREAM HOLE

41.   WALK

42.   Eat with M & C

43.   Walk alone at night

44.   Be alone in the house at night

45.   Bandage wound

46.   Apologize through air

47.   Round them up—pull her back from the wooing spot, from the darkest bar, the long walk between

48.   Move all together, whole for the first time

49.   Look into shard of mirror on ground

50.   SET SPACE / TUNE / WALK

51.   Buy them an ice cream cone

52.   Dream a system of healing

53.   SET SPACE / WALK / TUNE

54.   Talk about love, write it down, kiss a woman

55.   Dive into lake, whole

56.   SUN IN CHEST

57.   Drive South, don’t turn

58.   Let them settle, back on ground

59.   Rest inside green pearl

60.   See the future as a shape 

61.   To dream new

62.   Take them home, be in flowers

63.   SET SPACE / WALK / TUNE / SLEEP

64.   At the party with friends

65.   EAT / SLEEP / TUNE with rain & river / WALK

66.   DROP THE STICK

67.   Burn old ways

68.   Face West, wash, send flowers downriver

69.   WISH: THIS

70.   Shave remaining hair onto ground, born

71.    Continue / Repeat